The calm spaces

It is what it is...  Wishing, Wondering and thinking does not, can not and will not. It's not like you thought it could be but how it's handled.  It's at mad dash coming at you with no indication it's been on it's way for sometime now.  It arrives unannounced and without prior notification, it's on the fly.  Enjoy it if you can.

Whiskey, KMUW and Perspective

I'm back.  I am starting to get some focus on my perspective.  Whiskey and KMUW always helps with me getting a bearing on my perspective. KMUW is a radio station that broadcasts from the city i dwell in. It's a lot of different things except the usual.  Whiskey is my favorite and applied correctly works in every situation. I imagine whiskey would be equivalent to an extraordinary woman, not including my mother or my sisters.  My mother whom I wish I really could of gotten to known an my sisters which are all extraordinary women but not in the same context as whiskey will most likely come up later in other conversations. My mind seems to be swimming with lost thoughts, slivers of memories and fog from alcohol.  Music has always been a strong influence and even more influential under the in influence of alcohol, music and mental evaluation. I should make a list of what really makes me happy and start working those angles, but somehow that just seems to simple without actually fixing anything that has brought me to this point in time. NO!  Not drinking whiskey will not help with me figuring this multiplex, multilayer, unidentified situation which has caused a all out mission.

This is Therapy

This is not my first or even fifth blog.  I have been here before, this is a creative outlet that I may continue to use until I'm done.  I'm doing this again to help me get right, get my head together or figure out why I continue to let the same shit I'm not pleased with to happen.  My love for life is not the same.  I always seem to get my way but yet I'm not pleased with how life is unfolding.  My happy is eluding me and starting to put some distance between good and bad times.  I have had some difficult times as everyone has, but mine I have to deal with and that is what this mission is all about.  Yes, this has become a mission.  I always complete my missions!  I imagine much of what I say will sound like life is good, but I promise I'm not feeling it. I will not be able to get much of what I want back but that is not the task here.  The task as hand is to create new adventures and happiness. I am so committed to completing this mission that I will unbend my perspectives of what shit appears to be giving me.  I need perspective and I will have it!  Perspective changes and I'm about to put a stop to that noise.  Perspective is about a portion of time or about an event that could of changed the way you evaluated something or whatever,  I'm about to make it about a moment of time, something I can enjoy.  I can't know what I don't know but I can know what I do know.

dob